Half of the people in this family photo are now deceased. The other half are now divorced, seperated by many miles or just plain tired and crazy. There are a few key family members here, but this isn't half of (nor is it necessarily the core of) what and who we were. I wasn't even born yet!
I'm not totally comfortable posting vintage family photos (nor hardly any of myself) on this blog, so I'm not going to identify them. Just consider it a rare glimpse into our past - a reflection of the way life used to be! Reflections of the love life took from us! And that's precisely why I'm so adamant about holding onto what remains, and keeping it very near and dear.
This Thanksgiving, hubby and I were invited to his brother's house for a so-called, low-key gathering of family members and a few of their friends. We were grateful for the invitation and all we had to do was show up. But nooooo! I didn't feel too comfortable with that because I am the one who didn't want to be anywhere else other than with my own mother and sister.
As mom's primary caregiver, my sister had already decided they weren't going to have a big dinner for themselves this year. My mother is very fragile and my sister is very tired and more to the point, time and money is very tight! My sister deserves every blessing and every break that she can get, and I want to spend as much time and as many holidays as I can with Mom. Sure, I realize that big dinners aren't even necessary anymore, but due to my own personal angst, that situation has changed. Hubby and I have decided to take responsibility for the dinner this year even if we aren't actually preparing all of it.
Back in the 50's, when this photo was taken, our mother's and grandmother's usually slaved over a hot stove all day to prepare dinner for everybody. Thank God we've gotten away from all that but I do think it's something everyone ought to experience at least once. However, it's sooo not on my agenda this year!
We'd actually like to have both families over for dinner at our house but until the kitchen (and the bathrooms) is removed from the "permanently under construction" list, we can't handle dinner guests of that magnitude. When we are in that position, I will be able to control the atmosphere and the music and the guest list and the wine and the menu and everything. I like being in control! And they'll eat it all before it eats them!
Until then, we have to keep it traditional because some people just aren't going to have it any other way. For me, it's all about keeping it simple but still having the basics. Hubby said the food didn't matter as long as we have love and family and are thankful for what we've got. Of course, he's right. But I want to be comfortable and part of that comfort is making sure the menu is tight. Call me bourgie if you like, but Kroger's will not be preparing my Thanksgiving dinner if I can help it, I'm sorry.
I'm tired of turkey but at least, we ordered one FRIED! My sister decided to make the greens and the desserts, which are her specialties. I'm making the candied yams, which is one of my specialties. Hubby MIGHT make the macaroni & cheese, which is his ONLY specialty. I also ordered some of the best buttermilk biscuits that you'll ever taste from a local bakery. Since none of us are the best stuffing makers, I enlisted hubby's mother to make us a pan. Her stuffing is to DIE FOR! And it was the ONE THING my mouth was set for!
She reneged! I suppose her reasons were good enough. We had to quickly make other arrangements, which I assure you, are ....... good enough! But the mad rush back and forth spending money for this and that has already begun. It's all a part of the capitalist game!
No matter, Thursday morning will find me in my mother's kitchen, opening a good bottle of white bordeaux, whipping up a fabulous gravy and making those candied yams. I'll be right where I want to be with those I love the most. We'll reminisce about old times and send out love in Spirit to those who have left us. It'll be the best we can afford to make it and it will be good enough.
Happy Thanksgiving!