Another night! Another dream! Like dreaming of flying, this particular type of dream is also pretty common. Or so I'm told. I guess we just don't talk about them. After all, excrement is so distasteful! Who talks about scatological dreams in polite company?
Yes, that's right! I exploded and expelled a ton of shit. When I stop to think about it, it's not all that unusual that this sort of dream at this particular time in my life.
Let me explain! I've been on a quest for self-improvement and spiritual growth, and I have a most wonderful friend & spiritual mentor who helps me stay focused, and who doesn't think twice about bringing my wayward self back to center when I need it. One thing that I've experienced so far is the fact that I often have to go backward and address the old buried issues that really aren't dead before I'm able to move forward. I often have to dig up the mess & deal with it before flushing it down the toilet for good.
This latest dream found me so full of shyt that it was swirling all in my chest area - my heart area. It was about to spew outward at any moment and I felt sick, but my sickness wasn't necessarily a physical discomfort. It was an emotional/spiritual kind of uneasiness. Finally, it came forth in great quantity out of my ears, nose, and especially out of my mouth, where it stopped to choke me a little bit before oozing all the way out. There wasn't a foul smell, but it could have been given the fact that I knew what needed to be purged was odorous and polluted.
The following interpretations fit like hand in glove and nailed it for me: "To defecate in your dream is usually related to removing all that is wrong, unnecessary or not wanted in your waking life. All negative external or internal factors which keep you from achieving an emotional balance must be eliminated from your life - exactly like the feces, which are naturally removed in order to cleanse, purify and detoxify your body. Dreams involving excretory functions may also refer to letting go of the past and adopting a new lifestyle, changing one's old habits and way of thinking. Also, defecation dreams may be closely connected to a need to solve inner conflicts, to release negative emotions, remorse and feelings of guilt, painful memories, aggressiveness and anger, fear etc."
Let us be mindful that different aspects of the body can have various meanings in dreams: "To dream of the upper part of the body is to link with the mind and the spirtual aspects of character....if there is conflict between the upper and lower part (of the body) it indicates that there is disharmony between the mental faculties and instinctive behavior."
Consider this .... "the heart is the center of the being and represents "feeling" wisdom rather than intellectual wisdom. It is also representative of compassion and understanding."
Not so odd! My friend tells me that I lack a current genuine compassion for others. In my own defense, I know that I know that I have compassion in me, but I also know that he is right. I have become a little hardhearted! I told him I was trying to be better, act better, but that it could sometimes be difficult...hard! "That's something you are not going to change your mind about, but something you are going to have to change your HEART about" he replied!
This evening, I encountered a drunk on the street, and I don't know, maybe he was homeless, too! I was incredulous at his boldness when he asked me for a few dollars. I told him that I didn't have it, and then he asked me for a few cents! This pissed me off! Now, I've been known to empty my pockets for people on the streets asking for help, but I just wasn't feeling this man. Regardless, after it was all over, I still couldn't help thinking about the scripture that speaks of entertaining angels unaware; in other words, helping everyone we can when we can! Was it a test?
To say I am full of shyt is a way for me to redeem myself and make myself forgive myself for the ways that I have thought and behaved in the past. I am encouraged to move from that space into my next level. My growth is contingent upon it.
And I have taken the first laxative!